cranky me.

I guess I get a lil cranky and anti-social when I'm tired. I just feel so tired that I don't feel like entertaining people. So roomie, sorry if i was cranky. I kinda just got a bit pissed when you made 4 calls to me to test your mic out. The fact is the morons on the other side didn't switch on their volume loud enough or did they even switch it on? I could hear u loud and clear in my headphones and it's not funny =.=

Another 8.30 class tomorrow. And I'm pissed cos one selfish bastard took my Econs notes yesterday and somehow "conveniently" forgot to bring it to school. I mean, what the fuck? And he didn't even ask for my permission to take it home, he just took it to "have a look" and then it went home with him. God.

Procrastination..

is like masturbation; it feels good while you're doing it, until you realise you're just fucking yourself.

HAHA! Physics test tomorrow FML haih AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Busy busy busy?

What am I up to nowadays? I got into the subcommittee for my hall and also my faculty's club (that's 5 points! +9 distance points +2 for rooming with a local = 16 points! should be enough to bid for hall next year.. or maybe not =/) i had to decline an offer from another society (3 points only =/), kinda realistic of me.. but what to do.. Limited resources.. Cost and benefit!!!

Midterms start next week woots! So fast loh omgwtfbbq. I felt like i just came to this uni and now it's midterms already?! Been mugging in the library the whole week.. *tired*

I think I'm quite a lucky girl :) Let's hope the luck doesn't run out. I'll work real hard towards what I've always wanted.

I'm a dreamer; always have been, and will remain so. But I won't daydream kay!

psst... it's Friday! get to see the cute TA tomorrow HAHAHA! maybe we can have subway together again =O

Am I me anymore?

Uni screws you up in one way or another.

I try to stay true to myself, but find myself becoming more manipulative just to survive in this isolated concrete jungle.

Ohai it's 2.21 am *gasp*

and I ish still here blogging muahahah. I just finished my Chemistry homework which is due later today =.= yes yes I know it's so last minute but I'm like that unfortunately =( Procrastination is like a disease that I can't get rid of! zzz

So this is Week 5 of my life in NTU.. that's quite fast =O I'm still as clueless as ever but I'm coping.. I still get the venues wrong.. The school is too friggin' big! The bus routes are so hard to remember.. I always get off at the wrong stops and end up walking a super duper long distance back to my hall *sulks T3T

You know, maybe I should starve myself and get an iPad just for me to read my e-textbooks and also to carry around. I thought my laptop was light but it's nottttttttttt when you're carrying it the whole day T3T but I'm too poor to own one *wishful* oh wells~

Random random but he asked me to go to Japan with his family =O but i ish too poor to go and he offered to pay for my air tix which is very sweet of him but nonono i can't accept that because it's too expensive and i won't have much money to spend there anyways and and and. . bottom line is i'm a poor uni student =.= but look on the bright side! I'm debt-freeeeeeeeeee~

Oh gosh it's 2.32 am already wors, I shall abruptly end this post of random ding-dongs and go to bed! mmmmm fresh and clean sheets.. me likey!

reminder to self:

interview for main comm later today

complete tutorials (maths & econs FML) later today for tuesday's classes!!!

collect lucky draw prize (weee!!!) from library on wednesday

get details from MCP and complete online registration for tuition grant by thursday!!!! IMPORTANTTTTTT

Emo nemo me =/

School is going so fast like some Ferrari on steroids =( and I'm struggling to keep up *teary* and I'm feeling so empty pretending to be someone who i'm not.. =.= right now to my new class/course mates, i'm a demure, cheerful, and helpful person *shakes head* why am i trying so hard to be accepted and not be a social outcast cause i'm anti-social like that =.=" I feel so horrible having to play this character just so that I can be likeable and mildly popular and use these to my advantage in the future if i rally for elections for main committee positions and what-nots. *sigh*

And when I take off this mask, i'm left with emo nemo homesick me~ Almost cried when I called home =.= why am i so emotional all the time zzz

Oh well, gotta make the best of these 4 years.. and I think one of the TA is kinda cute =3 though he's from China =O

The dreams

of you are back; it's as if when I try to stop thinking about you, the dreams will come back to remind me of you.. sigh.

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Calculus is killing me. Sometimes I wonder why am I even here? Who was the one who swore she would never ever take Engineering? What am I doing now? And now I'm bound, bound to continue walking down this path..

Ohai abandoned blog..

Uni life is soooooo stressful and fast-paced =( I wonder how everyone else does it? The lecturer can just cover one whole chapter in 1 hour! Run through 60-70 slides in 1 lecture!!! Unbelievable. Haih, and my Physics and Maths is still as bad as ever. It's like everyone else around me understands except me!!! ='( I feel like a total hopeless noob. Econs is another problem; we had tutorial today and I didn't really know how to do some of the questions so I only did like 70%? of the questions, but to the rest of them, it's easy peasy! That's cause they took it in A-Levels =.= haih haih haih.

And then there's the Hall problem. I have to chalk up enough points to continue to stay on campus, which sucks because I really have to fight for leadership roles! That means commitment, responsibilities and less time for other stuff =( *big heavy sigh*

Oh wells, I got more stuff to settle for now.. Mundane stuff like laundry, and unpacking my remaining stuffs.. and folding and sorting my clothes..

Ze room mate.

1) Please stop telling people I'm a "scholar"! I'm not a fucking scholar for fucks sake. And when you say things like that, how am I suppose to respond? By agreeing with you and cementing the fact that I'm some self-absorbed prick who is so proud of herself? Or by disagreeing, but people will think you're being fake-ly humble. ANDDDDDD the people here HATE (to the power of infinity) the fact that "foreign talents" are on scholarships paid for by THEIR government.

2) Please lock the damn fucking door. I don't care whether you're going to pee or shit or bath, but pleaseeeeeeee lock the fucking door and don't dismiss me as being overparanoid when it's serious! What if someone just sneaks in and steal both our laptops? That's my whole savings + my textbooks + other stuff which value i cannot measure in monetary terms! Can you imagine she left the fucking door unlocked as both of us slept through the whole night? And that's because I slept earlier so I didn't check the door. I'm like super OCD now and I check it all the time.

3) Please please, I beg of you, be considerate and close the door softly; not with a loud "BANG". When I have 8.30 classes, I try to be as quiet as possible.. But you? nonono.. When you have 8.30am classes, it's like I'm having them too! And please don't slam the wardrobe so hard.. Oh god...

Palm reading!

Sort of got suckered in for this.. but it was quite fun and enlightening? haha =/

Basically, the palm reading "master" said this about me..

1) I'm a dreamer; idealist and a perfectionist (quite true IMO)

2) I fall for "exotic" men (wtf does this mean anyway? =/)

3) My potential lovers are either foreigners or countrymen who have migrated overseas

4) It's either the lover has total control over me, or i have total control over him (O_O)

5) If i'm not careful, i have a great tendency to be involved with 2 men at the same time (O____O)

6) I'm gonna get married at 27! lol

7) My benefactors are all men. (wtf) so it's better if my future boss is a guy, the people i work with are men, my clients are men, etc etc (WTFFF)

8) I'm a proud person (O_O) and confident (sure bo??) and knowledgeable so people look up to me as a leader (sure bo??????)

9) stay away from bodies of water. i will most probably drown. (how did he know i cant swim LOL)

and other stuff that i can't remember for the life of me. =/

i feel so bad...

i felt like i "used" that senior...he's kinda creepy.. but with good? intentions perhaps? he gave me a free Economics textbook..and delivered the rest right to my hall! (lucky not my doorstep =.=)

so for this semester.. and for 2 subjects for the next semester.. i bought 3 textbooks and 3 e-books for a grand total of... (cue dramatic soundtrack *dang dang dang danggggg*) SGD$30!!!! That's less than RM100 wtf. super cheap. yay! i don't have to starve so much le.. ^_^

First day of school!

I'm supposed to be excited, no? To be honest, I am finding it really hard to sit through a 2-hour lecture.. Back in poly, it used to be just 1 hour! And I'm not particularly interested in Physics or Economics..

They had the "Used Textbooks" Sale today by the seniors.. Suprisingly I couldn't get even a single copy of any subject that I will be taking this year. Seems like the Ah Tiongs (PRCs =/) sort of skipped lecture just to get first dips on the textbooks! Talk about being kiasu.

All hope is not lost though.. I'm sucking up to a Year 3 senior and he's gonna send me the electronic copies of the textbooks that he has! He'll be selling me the rest of em as well..

Lesson of the day; you really really have an advantage if you know seniors in your faculty. And humans are selfish beings.

My lecture notes..

are scaring me. =.=" and I've yet to get my text books. But I can already imagine how thick they will be haha =.=

Moving into hostel in 2 days..

and it's kinda overwhelming.. So many things to pack! 1 super big box just for my clothes, another big one for other ding dong stuffs..

And Daiso is like a mini shopping heaven! Got myself a chocolate brown wastepaper bin, a rainbow coloured stand mirror, pocket file, and huge laundry bags!