had difficulty opening my newly-bought jar of Smucker's Goober Chocolate (that's peanut butter + chocolate jam if u're confused haha). i was swearing and cursing after trying all sorts of methods (prying it using a knife, rendam-ing in a bowl of hot water; only to burn my fingers tamade). in frustration, i knocked the damn jar on the floor several times, and it went "pop" really soft, and i could open it with ease. zzz

on the sidenote, the bf threatened we won't be going to Japan if i don't take my studies seriously, boohoohoo. i showed him a really sad and emo face and said that he promised me and he is reneging on his promises boohoo. he then told me to "concentrate on ur studies lah!!! tuesday got quiz leh", then i retreated to study quietly albeit with a really sad expression. a few minutes later he came over and hugged me and told me that we're going to Japan anyway muahaha. i then demanded that he buy me some Royce chocolates to compensate for the emotional trauma that i went through MUAHAHAx2.

at times like these, i think it doesn't matter that ...............................lalala..............................

but sometimes i still hope that you would be there to hold on to my hand and stop me from rubbing my eyes..

boohoo~

so i totally bombed today's chemistry quiz. i think i lost like 10-15 marks from just totally not knowing anything about the questions (hydrides? what hydrides??? aqua regia??? he got teach meh????FML). so out of 40 marks, i think ima get 20 odd marks? separuh separuh lah.. hope everyone else scores badly and bring down the bell curve loh HAHAHA =x

anyway trip to europe = tak jadiiiiiii. so many unforeseen circumstances boohoohoo. but but but! booked flight+hotel to................. JENG JENG JENGGGGGGGGGGGG............... JAPANNNNNN MUAHAHAHA! 7th January baby~~~ boing boing boing.. so ima bring ma boots there and strut ma stuff~

so means, ima go back to KL on X'mas eve/day then come back to Stinkapore on the 5/6th Jan boohoohoo.... ima go kaotim my visa stuff (screw u Msian overstayers in Japan!!! cos of you horrible people, now we must apply visa FTS)

instead of Eiffel~~~

Harajuku, Akihibara, Shinjuku HERE I COMEEEE

judgement

so i kind of had a kick-ass "outfit of the day" for school today which consisted of a white V-neck with colorful wordings (thrifted from warehouse sale for $9! from the guys section btw haha!), my poufy black mesh skirt, and my awesome Atacomas! admired my outfit in the mirror and there i went, struttin' my stuff until i reach the lift lobby when i stopped and thought about what people would think of me and my outfit =___=

you see, i was dressing like some typical design student but truth was i was an engine student! im sure my classmates will be talking behind my back about what kind of outlandish outfit is that, bla bla bla (which proved to be true cos they were talking shit about this other girl wearing a 2 inch heels.. my Atacomas were at least 4 inches tall! -___-)

so in the end, i walked back into the lift, back to my room, and changed into my ballet flats =_____________= sigh. i wish i could be like rumi and be fashionable and wear weird stuff that look good (to me at least) and still don't give a fuck about what others think. oh wells.

booties or wedges? XD

nyeh heh heh.. after waiting for weeks and weeks.. i went to collect my Atacomas! nyeh heh heh.. been looking through lookbook.nu for inspiration on how to wear my new shoessss! and been having fun having a mini fashion show when my room mate was out.. =x

it is like the highest high heels that i've ever ever gotten! i believe i'm at least 11-12cm taller with these bitches on muahaha! and the soft leather is so comfortable! no blisters baby! (provided my feet doesn't break due to the height of the heels)! it keeps my feet warm too.. so i was thinking of bringing this to europe next year *evil grin*

indecision.

now that my hair's long, i feel like chopping it off. go figure.

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because you'll never know how i feel.

random thoughts..

"When things break, it's not the actual breaking that prevents them from getting back together again. It's because a little piece gets lost - the two remaining ends couldn't fit together even if they wanted to. The whole shape has changed."
— John Green

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
— Mark Twain

"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."
— Chuck Palahniuk

i miss you.. do you feel the same way too? :(

To my bestie...

you're my soulmate! *shy* =p

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andddd I flunked my Physics quiz =( 80/120 wtf bbq haih #*^$%#&$%#&

so so so disappointed with myself haih *slaps self*

and the worst thing is, that bitch cheated and no one caught her. and she got 100/120! cibai.

ChuckBlair

Chuck: I'm not Chuck Bass without you
Chuck: Why would I want to be him?
Chuck: I destroyed the only thing I ever loved.
Blair: I don't love you anymore.
Chuck: Your world would be easier if I didn't come back.
Blair: But it wouldn't be my world without you in it.
Blair: He turned around and did the one thing he knew I could never let go.
Blair: This whole night didn't happen.
Blair: Goodbye Chuck.
Blair: This is the end Chuck.
Blair: You and I loved each other. And then you broke my heart.
Chuck: I'M CHUCK BASS! Who cares?
Blair: I forgave him, for something that no one else in the world would ever get over.
Chuck: We're never going to be safe.
Chuck: Are you brave enough or aren't you?
Blair: I love you.
Chuck: Well that's too bad.
Blair: What?
Blair: All I ever did was love you.

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Blair: They say it's a broken heart, but i hurt in my whole body
Blair: What if I never get over Chuck...

Saturdayyy~

Nua-ed on the bed for quite some time and dreamt of playing with many furry hamsters that look like fat versions of Boi boi and also dreamt of being chased by some scary people in a foreign country =/

“Fate determines who comes into your life, your heart determines who stays.”

i realize that..

i'm quite boring. i buy the same things in different colors... the same Hush Puppies ballet flats in grey and electric blue. the same Havaianas in 2 different shades of white. the same Rip Curl flip flops in white and pink. the same Cotton On tee in 3 colors; grey black and white (and countless other similar v-neck tees in baby blue, navy, charcoal grey, white with zippers =.=). the same shorts in black, white, and denim. the same HVV dress in navy and grey. the same tube dress with different floral patterns. the same Topshop tops in blue and beige. the same blazers in nude and black.

i'm just plain bored. and procrastinating cause i can't understand a shit about this Economics crap.

Ohai it's 2.21 am *gasp*

and I ish still here blogging muahahah. I just finished my Chemistry homework which is due later today =.= yes yes I know it's so last minute but I'm like that unfortunately =( Procrastination is like a disease that I can't get rid of! zzz

So this is Week 5 of my life in NTU.. that's quite fast =O I'm still as clueless as ever but I'm coping.. I still get the venues wrong.. The school is too friggin' big! The bus routes are so hard to remember.. I always get off at the wrong stops and end up walking a super duper long distance back to my hall *sulks T3T

You know, maybe I should starve myself and get an iPad just for me to read my e-textbooks and also to carry around. I thought my laptop was light but it's nottttttttttt when you're carrying it the whole day T3T but I'm too poor to own one *wishful* oh wells~

Random random but he asked me to go to Japan with his family =O but i ish too poor to go and he offered to pay for my air tix which is very sweet of him but nonono i can't accept that because it's too expensive and i won't have much money to spend there anyways and and and. . bottom line is i'm a poor uni student =.= but look on the bright side! I'm debt-freeeeeeeeeee~

Oh gosh it's 2.32 am already wors, I shall abruptly end this post of random ding-dongs and go to bed! mmmmm fresh and clean sheets.. me likey!

reminder to self:

interview for main comm later today

complete tutorials (maths & econs FML) later today for tuesday's classes!!!

collect lucky draw prize (weee!!!) from library on wednesday

get details from MCP and complete online registration for tuition grant by thursday!!!! IMPORTANTTTTTT