ramblings of an insane uni student

fuckety fuck fuck.

bio quiz in 3.5 hours woohoo! and 1st paper of finals in exactly 2 weeks time AHHHHHHHHHH

had difficulty opening my newly-bought jar of Smucker's Goober Chocolate (that's peanut butter + chocolate jam if u're confused haha). i was swearing and cursing after trying all sorts of methods (prying it using a knife, rendam-ing in a bowl of hot water; only to burn my fingers tamade). in frustration, i knocked the damn jar on the floor several times, and it went "pop" really soft, and i could open it with ease. zzz

on the sidenote, the bf threatened we won't be going to Japan if i don't take my studies seriously, boohoohoo. i showed him a really sad and emo face and said that he promised me and he is reneging on his promises boohoo. he then told me to "concentrate on ur studies lah!!! tuesday got quiz leh", then i retreated to study quietly albeit with a really sad expression. a few minutes later he came over and hugged me and told me that we're going to Japan anyway muahaha. i then demanded that he buy me some Royce chocolates to compensate for the emotional trauma that i went through MUAHAHAx2.

at times like these, i think it doesn't matter that ...............................lalala..............................

but sometimes i still hope that you would be there to hold on to my hand and stop me from rubbing my eyes..

and i can't sleep..

your love's a drug.

boohoo~

so i totally bombed today's chemistry quiz. i think i lost like 10-15 marks from just totally not knowing anything about the questions (hydrides? what hydrides??? aqua regia??? he got teach meh????FML). so out of 40 marks, i think ima get 20 odd marks? separuh separuh lah.. hope everyone else scores badly and bring down the bell curve loh HAHAHA =x

anyway trip to europe = tak jadiiiiiii. so many unforeseen circumstances boohoohoo. but but but! booked flight+hotel to................. JENG JENG JENGGGGGGGGGGGG............... JAPANNNNNN MUAHAHAHA! 7th January baby~~~ boing boing boing.. so ima bring ma boots there and strut ma stuff~

so means, ima go back to KL on X'mas eve/day then come back to Stinkapore on the 5/6th Jan boohoohoo.... ima go kaotim my visa stuff (screw u Msian overstayers in Japan!!! cos of you horrible people, now we must apply visa FTS)

instead of Eiffel~~~

Harajuku, Akihibara, Shinjuku HERE I COMEEEE

chem quiz later today~~

chem quiz in 7.5 hours muahaha n im still not done mugging FML. oh my! i have turned into a mediocre student for university! but for the first time in years, i've never felt so alive before.

hmm..

sometimes, words escape me.

and i don't know how what to write about anymore.

錯的人?

Blair: I don’t expect you to wait.

Chuck: If 2 people are meant to be together, eventually they’ll find their way back.

Blair: Do you really believe that?

Chuck: I do

Blair: So do I

judgement

so i kind of had a kick-ass "outfit of the day" for school today which consisted of a white V-neck with colorful wordings (thrifted from warehouse sale for $9! from the guys section btw haha!), my poufy black mesh skirt, and my awesome Atacomas! admired my outfit in the mirror and there i went, struttin' my stuff until i reach the lift lobby when i stopped and thought about what people would think of me and my outfit =___=

you see, i was dressing like some typical design student but truth was i was an engine student! im sure my classmates will be talking behind my back about what kind of outlandish outfit is that, bla bla bla (which proved to be true cos they were talking shit about this other girl wearing a 2 inch heels.. my Atacomas were at least 4 inches tall! -___-)

so in the end, i walked back into the lift, back to my room, and changed into my ballet flats =_____________= sigh. i wish i could be like rumi and be fashionable and wear weird stuff that look good (to me at least) and still don't give a fuck about what others think. oh wells.

booties or wedges? XD

nyeh heh heh.. after waiting for weeks and weeks.. i went to collect my Atacomas! nyeh heh heh.. been looking through lookbook.nu for inspiration on how to wear my new shoessss! and been having fun having a mini fashion show when my room mate was out.. =x

it is like the highest high heels that i've ever ever gotten! i believe i'm at least 11-12cm taller with these bitches on muahaha! and the soft leather is so comfortable! no blisters baby! (provided my feet doesn't break due to the height of the heels)! it keeps my feet warm too.. so i was thinking of bringing this to europe next year *evil grin*

New loot!

After considering for weeks.. I'm getting this! And a Canon 550D kit muahaha!!! But there goes my Japan trip.....boohooohooo~~~

lalala~

i just enjoy talking to you; or rather, with you. :)

The story of Europe, Japan and the G12

So I guess I will be going to Japan.. and Europe in July.. I have been saving diligently and it's quite heartening to see that I have more than enough for my air ticket and expenses to London.. i mean, money comes in at a steady rate if i maintain my results..it feels nice though i have to watch what i spend on nowadays..

no more Topshop, MNG and the likes for me.. i dare not even step in any of these shops for fear of succumbing to temptation.. no McD, Subway, Sakae sushi for me even though they are just across my hall.. it's just chap chai png everyday.. keeping the total cost for meals under $5/day.. no buses, it's either the free shuttle bus or walk.

the only thing i have splurged on in these 3 months is my pair of Acne booties which cost $79 >_<>

:)

i had the weirdest wackiest dream ever. I was throwing uncooked spaghetti (those thin yellow sticks) and it became yellow snakes wtf but i was not afraid and then it became stone. =/and i remember hugging a very cute guy hahaha! looked like some actor =/

must motivate myself to save more money!! :)

Was I ever truly over him? At one time I was sure that the answer was yes. But if seeing him again - and merely touching his hand - could peel back so many layers of my heart, then did I ever stop loving him the way you’re supposed to stop loving everyone but the one you’re with?

— Love the One You’re With by Emily Giffin

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death."

Robert Fulghum

We all have something to hide. Some dark place inside us we don’t want the world to see. So we pretend everything’s okay. Wrapping ourselves in rainbows. And maybe that’s all for the best, because some of these places are darker than others.

—
Dexter

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

—
Jodi Picoult

She isn’t clingy because she cares. She isn’t psycho because she wants to know who you’re with. She isn’t doubtful because she fears losing you. She isn’t insecure because she thinks another girl isn’t pretty. She isn’t boring because you don’t see her dolled up anymore, she just feels comfortable. Don’t blame her if she doesn’t call you all the time, she doesn’t want you to think she’s crazy. She just wants you to have some space. When you ask your girlfriend if you can do something and she says yes, it doesn’t always mean sure, go ahead. Yes she trusts you, she just doesn’t always trust the people around you. She’s not territorial. She’s not controlling. She just likes you, wants you to stay, and is just being the normal, caring, loving, will-do-anything type of girlfriend she is. So don’t break promises, even though we know you will. So don’t ignore her, even though we know sometimes you do. Don’t take advantage of her kindness, even though you already have. And don’t hurt her. Us girls don’t ask for much, just a moment of your time, a hand to hold, shoulder to cry on, and ears that will actually listen. We don’t expect you to be perfect because we already think you’re perfect for us. Your imperfections just make us love you more and more. So don’t hurt her, because she dropped her guard for you.