hmm..

it feels warm and fuzzy inside when he said that he wants to take care of me cos i seem so blur most of the time.

but the thing is, am i leading myself into the darkside again?

tsk tsk tsk

sometimes i wonder.. people who have never contacted you (whether in real life or online) for years; one day they just start to chat with you out of the blue, and that's cause they have something to ask of you.

humans, aren't you predictable?

End of Week 1 Sem 2..

and I'm still the same me (still in holiday mood lalala).. I have a feeling that this sem will be a tough one.. just looking at the math notes makes me go @_@..

dunno how to continue~~~ hahaha tata! XD

World War 2!

*ahem*...i meant.. Sem War 2! Semester 2 is starting next week! Enough of fooling around and gotta get my eyes off the laptop and on to books and lots of books. So results came out.. And I'm stunned. I expected farrrrrrrr lousier grades but i was a lil disappointed as well when i saw my grades. Contradicting, no? It's a mix of "OMG I'M SO LUCKY! i get to retain my scholarship and not get my $$$ terminated" and "aww man I could've done better" sort of thing. Just between you and me, i feel a bit "syok sendiri" cos my GPA is considered very good for a poly student (i even beat some JC's asses yo!) but of course there are those who got a perfect 5.0 score and another class of geniuses who aren't even in the GPA system cos they are so smart they are taking completely different modules.. Not that I'm so obsessed with grades..I'm just happy $$$ is going to keep rolling in..for another semester.. That means I could splurge a lil, and get THE nifty-fifty lens..(it's called the nifty-fifty but it costs SGD120 at the cheapest shop that i could find, damn you!) BUT THEN AGAIN, I feel like getting the f1.4 one (which probably will cost me an arm and a leg T_T) , poisonnnnnnn!!!

So I went to Japan and DAMN i regret not getting that kate spade wallet! and that coach handbag/sling bag! I was worried i would have no more $$$ so i was living like a miser in Japan boohoohoo! I didn't buy anything >1000 yen (except for that agnes b wallet, and that shirt that had no pricetag which costs 4700 yen when i went to the counter to pay!!! i wanted to say nah i don't want it already but HAIH it's so pretty and so paiseh to say don't want right???)

What did i buy for myself???

- H&M shirt = 1000yen!

- H&M tee = 500yen!

- Girlish chiffon long sleeve shirt = 900yen!!! (cos it had a minor 1mm stain so it's a "B grade" merchandise and is heavily discounted!!!)

- White chiffon shirt with black polka dot sash = 4700+yen (boohoo)
- Oxford heels = 900+yen!!!! SO CHEAP OMG

- agnes b wallet = 8400yen (so expensive boohoohoo my heart bleeds for my wallet, i mean the old one.. =____=)

- And random snacks which i discovered to expire in 1-2 months time so HOW TO BRING BACK TO MALAYSIA AS SOUVENIR LA HAIH now im stuck with like a mountain of cakes, biscuits, chocolates that expire as early as next week and latest by February zzzzzzzzz.

and for the first time in my life, strawberries were SWEET! Like WTF right, we've been eating sour/tasteless ones for years so i thought that strawberries are supposed to be sour, right right? But nooooo, in Japan, it's so sweet loh! i was like "waaaaaa so nice" and kept eating like some starved child from Africa HAHAHA.

Oh oh! And the sweet potatoes are damn good hor! The purple skin with yellow flesh one! The ones we have in SG and MY are fakes grown in China/Thailand so they don't smell or taste the same! I kept baking them in the oven and kept nom-ing them throughout the trip! I bought 2 big packets back and just ate 1 for breakfast *heavenly bliss*

ok la enough of my random ramblings...time to continue my Family Guy!!!

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right and
I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

All the time

2011

on the first day of 2011, I:

-went to Batu Caves and walked more than 600 steps (up and down the temple hor!) in my ridiculous Atacomas.

-went to Genting for a breather but ended up kena pickpocket-ed but somehow i got back my phone and a cut/scratch on my hand as a souvenir.

quite eventful huh? i am also quite terrified by the way i behaved =/ i was in a berserk/rage mode and everything around me was like faded out. the experience is quite surreal as the only thing i can focus on is the Thai lady who looks quite pale and shaken.

even when she tried to distract me by pointing to a pile of clothes (insinuating that my phone is in the pile of clothes), i just held on tight and stared into her eyes as i swept the pile of clothes to the floor.

she finally dropped my phone on the floor after i refused to let go and then took the chance to try to get away. she stripped (flashed me with her flat boobies and privates but i didn't see her privates hor!) when she couldn't get away and then the guards wouldn't touch her. WTFx2.

so in the end, i got my phone back, and a scratch (from her nails i guess?) as a souvenir. i didn't pursue further because i respected someone's else's wish (which sort of made me feel a lil disappointed as i believe that these people should be punished accordingly so that in the future they will think twice/won't even have the chance to do it again)

anyway my auntie thinks that the thief is quite pitiful (must be poor or need money that's why do this kinda thing WTF?) but the thing is, she committed a crime. i don't get why is she pitiful? i'm not trying to be selfish, but isn't the victim more pitiful instead had the thief had gotten away with it?

so the bottom line is, i'm a lil disappointed because generally when things happen, the people around you do not act at all, the staff at the shop are total idiots as well (except one lady and another guy who gave chase), the security guards are not giving a flying fuck and the policemen generally don't even really believe you and treat you with skepticism when you try to report a case.

but at least i have a bestie who supported me through the drama. though i guess she must be terrified by me when i was in the berserk/rage mode =______= i'm not like that usually ok!!!