mad world

i guess im just sick of being the "me" that everyone else expects me to be.. i think ive made it to where my family expects me to be.. living comfortably without spending a penny of their money while getting my degree.. and my holidays consist of me going back to help out.. and i wonder why should i still be in a relationship where the feelings that i used to have are already gone.. or maybe it wasnt really there at all in the first place.. i can live a life, be a "me" that lives up to other people's expectations; but love shouldn't be mediocre! i shouldn't be telling people that "it's ok lah" and "like that loh" when people ask me about my love life. maybe this is just a phase; a temporary madness. but i really feel like going out and getting my world turned upside down instead of just slogging away the hours and still remain in a relationship because of familiarity. and maybe by doing this, i might just be able to fill the void created when you left.